I posted something earlier today, but got deleted because I deleted the content. But I still feel I need to write this. I wanted to say that, a while ago I was feeling so desperate and depressed, which made me so emotional and sometimes crying, but now I don't feel sad or not energetic, I just don't feel anything. I don't care anymore about my life and I don't consider the consequences of my actions. In the past I would plan carefully what I do because my life was dear to me and I wanted to live it as long as possible. Now, I just don't care. I tried to change my life, but I couldn't.