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Originally Posted by HalloweenSkye
I am actively planning my end. And at the same time trying to delay it. I know it is wrong. It's wrong for me to take this way out, but at the same time I have been battling this for so ****ing long. Why should I keep fighting? I'm exhausted of it all. I want to disappear.
But, as always, I have made plans of things to look forward to, to prevent me from taking this measure. For now anyway. Although I'm not sure these things will be enough to stop me. Time will tell I guess.
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Hello Dear,
Tell someone NOW if you are planning suicide. we dont want to lose you. Those loved ones you mention dont want to lose you.
I send my love and support and wrap my arms around you in your pain because I know how black things can seem when depression covers over and drags us down.
You have reached out on this site and that is a good start. That tells me you dont really want to give up, rather you just dont want to live with such bleak despair anymore. That is understandable. Depression is exhausting in every wy.
Hold on and use that plan you have that keeps your head above water and when you need more than that get outside help, please.
you dont need to be alone with this. talk to people and ask for help let them know you're really really having a hard time hanging on.