Oh, it's not that people don't get back to me right away. What I mean is that, unless I reach out to them and ask them to hang out, I don't hear from them. It's been that way all of my life. In my early 20's, I was in tears about it to my church group leader (this was back when I went to church) and she said that sometimes that is just the roll you play in a friendship--you're more the planner, initiator, etc. And that tends to be true. Case in point, my friend and I were hanging out a few weeks ago and she mentioned that she and her sister were going to try to get Garth Brooks tix for when he's in town next month (I was a huge country fan back in the 90's! Don't like it now, but I think that concert will be so fun!) Anyway, I was excited and said, "Count me in!" Fast forward to the morning they went on sale, and who ended up online at 10am with her credit card? Me. It's not that people take advantage of me, because these girls will pay me back. It's that some people talk and don't have a plan. I tend to want to immediately back up what I say with some kind of plan, like hey let's do this it sounds like fun, okay how do we do it?

My friends like me, and want to hang out. It's just that sometimes, I want them to call me. Sometimes, when I'm not feeling so great, that's what I need, you know?

Anyway, I'm rambling. I have a lot on my mind tonight...sorry. I'm sort of using PC as a distraction at the moment.