I also especially feel this, when I'm happy or content or sad or intense feelings and especially grey areas following after intense feelings which can trigger them again. I'm always in a state of anxiety, because I don't know my footing where I'm at.

Like I don't know some days if my parents are real or they just to me good night because they love me or they want to kill me later. Like mine goes really out there and deep end.

My brain cannot process events and interactions with any accuracy.

I confuse kindness for flirtation and anger or being upset with someone who isn't upset with me at all.

I confuse the other person, by trying to explain something and their completely lost because they don't get my point or my thoughts ever.

Everyone treats me like I'm either really stupid or smart, I never had a person really take consideration of the full spectrum as of now.

I blow a lot of people off and write them off as bad people when I shouldn't, because I really don't know someone. I think relationships from an abstract logic basis, not a grounded emotional one that's based on give and receive and benefit on the quality of emotional stasis we both may feel.

I sometimes use people for either to more access of weed or for affection or sex or their emotional support when I had more than enough, but don't know where the line is drawn. I don't realize how negative I can affect others most of the time I'm not aware I'm doing this till after the fact.

I really forget things that are emotionally important for others, because sometimes I thought I was really slow or stupid, but can't emotionally see significance on their feelings, because I always come up a reason why they can't try harder or something. I don't see their effort emotionally for what it is. I can't really see the empathy when it's there.

The world isn't colorful it feels black and white and grey. Not much else.

It's a cold feeling constantly, like everyone is on a separating iceberg floating and drifting farther like everyone you interact with no matter how much effort they put to you.