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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
I don't know if these count as "delusions", but there was one time I was convinced that everybody hated me. I thought every person I knew and every person I saw on the street was talking about me behind my back. I thought they were all making fun of me or saying how disgusted they were with me. At the same time, I thought everyone was conspiring against me -- like, they were all out to get me. I thought they were talking behind my back to make secret plans to do something to me, but I didn't know what that "something" was. My goal was then to figure out what they were going to do to me.
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See, this is what I am leaning towards and I'm not quite sure if this is delusional. I stopped talking to everyone for no real reason. The only reason I keep my phone on right now is because my sister is due within the next week, and I wanna be there to see my new nephew. But people have stopped texting me or talking to me and I feel like I can longer trust them because they hate me or they are trying to plot something against me. I just feel like I can not trust anyone and I would rather be alone. Especially my neighbor on the other side of my cubicle at work. I seriously think every time he gets up to go somewhere he is looking at me and what I am doing to plot something against me or tell my boss I'm just playing around while I'm here. My cubicle is also in a high traffic area and so many people walk behind me, and the copier is behind me. I think everybody is looking over my shoulder to see what I'm doing and I get paranoid. When I hear footsteps I close windows and become nervous that they're going to tell my supervisor something. The test will be tomorrow when more people will be in the office and how I will react. I'm fine with emails, but I'm scared. I set my messenger to away because I don't want anyone to message me, but that it still shows that I am online. My anxiety has been really high over the past couple days I'm thinking its because of this.
