I feel this every day. I have a son and a partner and it never matters how many times I tell them, or others, how I'm feeling everyone just seems to brush it off with the age old "it'll get better". Except it hasn't gotten better, not in almost 20yrs and I'm only 29
I guess I just keep hanging on to hope for my son and because despite the lies depression tells me, I don't really want to be gone; I just want to be rid of these god awful feelings. And I know what helps me feel better. I just can't do any of it without help which I don't have and can't get. That in itself creates a vicious cycle which adds to my already horrid depression.