Ulitmately it truely was when it started entering my work...I had always been fairly successful there...even though my world was crubbling...

Had been seeing a pdoc for about 2 years...my marriage was failing with a gap widening over a 3 year period...

the pdoc ignored my requests to explore more about BP and BPD...it pissed me off when he indicated he was making some changes in his philosophy of prescribing me a benzo...I was to meet with him in two weeks...went to refill and he cut my prescription down 3/4 and so I didn't see him...still waiting to get into a new pdoc...he had now cut my prescription down to 1/2...I kept taking my regular dosage...

I saw the kids T while waiting for the new pdoc in the same clinic...

I had gotten dx with BP and BPD fairly quickly and started taking Lamcital...and finding ways to deal with both...

Ulitmately it was me pushing...my dad was bipolar...i had looked over the last 25 years (now I'm about to turn 37) ... they symptoms were stairing in my face...I wrote down the various stages of my life...high school...college...marriage...divorce...and other topics...it brought the new people up to speed...

I've gone in a bunch of directions hope this helps a little