My T taught me to "check my heart". Much better than listening to the head games I was playing with myself. The heart doesn't lie/play games or go in circles or invent stuff.

I had a wonderful dream, the crux of it was I was trying to pick up two full bags of groceries off the hood of a truck which was slightly too high. I picked up one bag in one arm then went to pick up the other bag in the other arm and the first one tipped and everything felt as if it were going to go over/spill. But then my body and balance took over automatically (without my head telling it what to do :-) and that whole "feeling" of natural balance and how I hadn't been able to get in my own way using my idiot head. . . was what I took with me out of the dream.

By all means I would tell your T what is going on in your head, but only when it is threatening to get in the way of your relationship and heart work. You know well now how you feel about your T and the work you are doing; when some "other" feeling surfaces, stop. Stop and look at that. I put in your other post that I found it hard to believe you were quitting therapy and I wasn't trying to be "smart" or mean or anything; I think you have enough hold of the process now Mouse that you can't go "back" anymore, only forward. Definately talk about what gets in your way going forward but use all the memories and insights, etc. that you have, which have shifted the balance, the "critical mass" so you're "over the hill." Ultimately you will have to be the one to "tame" your head games. What they are exactly isn't what's important as your battle to weed them out and show them to be false protection. You've used them so long it will be hard to banish them but you have the real relationship with your T to put opposite them.

I started when I was complaining to my T about the "group" of men in my head telling me ugly things. She replied simply, "Tell them I don't believe they exist." I imagined that and it is a funny scenario to this day as she is a tiny woman and I could just picture their "anger" and imagine any fight that would ensue. My laughter at the image made them "go away" and I haven't heard from them since :-) Definately "use" your T! You're a fulcrum and she's the other end of the beam countering the weight of your past. Ah, here's some people with good illustrations:

http://www.inspection.gc.ca/english/...es/fulcrum.jpg

http://curriculum.calstatela.edu/cou.../balance_2.gif