What happened to you was upsetting for you and you are deserving of support regardless. Your ache does not take away from anyone else's ache. It is not a contest to compare who was more violated and whether that violation fit the legal description of rape or not.

I hope you keep your app't on Tuesday and take the opportunity to speak with a counselor about what happened so that you can feel healing comfort.

This event meant something to you and it caused you distress. You have the right to take care of yourself in this matter.

For what it is worth - I feel that this man did betray your trust. Trust is a precious gift that once lost is not easily regained.

But most important, I hope that you keep your app't and talk with someone who is skilled at helping you. You deserve to cared for. There will always be others who have suffered more than you just as there will always be other who suffer less. Where you fall on that spectrum of suffering does not matter. You have the opportunity to meet with someone and I hope that you take that opportunity.

Meet with this person and then decide from there. You deserve to take care of yourself.