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Originally Posted by WhatDayIsItAgain
I was raped and I blame myself for not being strong enough to make him stop. I was on the bus and many nonraping people just watched the bus rape whirlpool without helping me. I hate myself very much and I think they would have helped a different girl who was not me. I am over 50 years old with grey hair so he choose a weak person on purpose... I hate being old and weak too. If I wasn't old, weak, tiny, ugly, worthless, etc... he would not have gotten away with hurting me.
I never really had too much good selfesteem but now I have very bad selfesteem.
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I am so sorry for your pain! If I was there I would have jumped in I promise. I was teenager riding a bus to work when an older man sat next to me. I should have gotten up but the bus was packed. He put his hands on my leg I was mortified and afraid and that hand kept moving. I saw adults watching no one said a word, i finally came to my senses and jumped away humiliated and horrified that no one cared! I felt worthless. ((((What Day Is It again))))
:sadhus: You are worthwhile!