I don't know your situation but in my case ... if I felt that way (and I have before) ... I would be very careful .... my interests .. concerns ... fears .. desires change ... sometimes quickly sometimes slowly .... be very sure before you open your mouth .... sometimes we get what we ask for even if we really didn't want that ... maybe just something different ... maybe turn your world upside down ....

I have no idea what I am saying .... except I feel you .... but for me the unknown is always worst than anything happening now ... good luck ..