Thank you both for responding. Idk I'm starting to think it's getting more serious than I would like it to be. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to say this here but I have thought of a "plan" but I am holding out on it as long as I can but it's just like there's a big cloud hanging over me and sometimes it almost feels like I'm counting down the days to the inevitable. Yes, there is student counseling but unfortunately it takes about a month to get an intake appointment and I graduate in 2 weeks and after that I can't utilize their services. I don't think it's wise for me to call any numbers because I am on a phone plan with other members of my family and all our calls sync together (so we can all see our own calls and each other's phone calls)--we don't necessarily want it this way, just haven't been able to successfully change it and have learned to live with it. I have utilized chat services online a few times in the last couple of weeks that have been pretty good and they helped to an extent. It was mostly just a script though so it was a little impersonal... I've looked into a couple therapists where I am currently located but I am trying to find a job for the summer (at least) first before I commit to one... Or maybe I'm just treating this as more of an option than it actually is... I'm not sure.

Thank you both for the welcome and hope you're having a good day today!