The way you said you feel 'unique' and 'special' sounds to me like you're hypomanic. At least you still have insight. I know what you mean about realizing it'll be finite and you're still bipolar and that the pendulum will swing the other way eventually. I may be in the same boat as you are as i'm getting some small signs that hm is impending now that early Spring is finally[!] here. Let's keep an eye on each other!