I took meds. I took a prn. This is not a good feeling now. I'm hypomanic so I acted like a freak at work. And after work. I've been on the up since I had about 3 days of depressiona few weeks ago now. There was the day I didn't stop laughing the whole day, including during a meeting and had to get up and leave. Then that settled some and I was a nice even keel slightly elevated for at least 10 days, not too much, not too little. Just right. Then a lot more anxious type stuff the last few days, and then today I pretty much thought I was king of the world and could solve all of the problems in prison and healthcare. It really felt like I could. It all made sense. It still does. I also know I feel exhausted at the same time I feel really really wired. If I rated my mood it would not be 'normal' range. Earlier it felt so good and now it feels agitating to be out of the normal range. Because I'm recognizing it. This is really frustrating. I don't want to have bipolar anymore. I have it though. I'm on a psych board. It's spring. It's normal to be on up side. I just have to control it better and function better through it. That's what I've been doing for months. I'm able to work consistently, I do well. I feel embarrassed people at work are either going to think I'm a narcisstic jerk, or that I'm crazy. Probably crazy bc I'm pretty sure people don't think I'm a jerk. It's not normal for me to write a full page plus email with a detailed analysis and plan to correct, when I wasn't asked to in any way to do it. I made it seem like I can fix it single handedly. I really felt like I was kind of god like earlier for a few hours. It was so intense and beautiful actually. Calming to think about now. I still have bipolar. It will be ok. Maybe my plan is actually brilliant, like somebody said. "The disease of genius", my therapist once said. But that might just be me being hypo. I've been writing this for a long time now. I can go to bed and sleep, and not get up if I wake up early and try to go back to sleep. If I wake up at 1am totally wired, which I did last night, I just need to tone it down and take another prn. If you listened through all of that, thanks. Peace Out.