I feel like all my posts are so similar, but I guess I can't help the way I feel. Anyway I've been having a hard time lately having lost my job not long ago and feeling too suspicious about my "friends." The reason I say friends that way is because I really feel like I have almost none now. In particular there's a group of people I hang with on Friday nights every week. Now originally this group started because I knew a couple of these guys played a card game called yugioh that I also played and I wanted more people to play with. The one guy liked it so much he made it a weekly thing at his house. So we've been doing this now for almost a year and a half and many more people have joined the group and it has become a bigger thing (it started with 4 of us btw, myself included). Since then some of the members have stopped playing yugioh and instead of a game night it has become more of just a hangout night with some of us still playing the game which is fine. I do still have fun, but what I've noticed is that the other 3 original members of this group have become practically inseparable. Two of them were close friends before, but the one just became part of their little separate group. They seem to exclude me from nearly everything now. Little things and hangouts don't bother me, but I heard them talking about going to a convention pretty close to our area called AnimeNext soon. This might not seem like a big deal, but anime has been a part of my life for literally almost 20 years. I'm currently 24 and have been watching anime ever since I saw dragonball z as a little kid. It may sound dumb, but I honestly think it's shaped me as a person. That being said they know I'm a huge anime fan and I've probably watched more than the 3 of them combined and they didn't even tell me about it. For crying out loud look at my user name! Lelouch is one of my favorite characters from one of my favorite animes called Code Geass. What am I supposed to do, invite myself? That's absurd. I've never been to an anime convention before, but have wanted to for a while. I just didn't really have anyone to go with before. Idk if they don't realize how much little things like this over time hurt people or if they really just don't care about me at all, but I'm sick of feeling left out all the time. Really not sure if this is just a rant or if I'm trying to find someone to relate to, but this has been bothering me for a while and since hearing about being left out of something larger I just don't know what to think about these people anymore.