(((WHO IVE BECOME))). I am sorry for the trauma that you have been through in the past. I hope you can find the support here at Psych Central. There is also a lot of support in the Chat rooms as well when you need someone to chat with in person. I hope you will consider seeing a therapist since you are still having issues with your past and you need help moving on with your life. Take care of yourself and try to stay safe. Soidhonia