Same here. I don't know 'bout you. For me, the traumatic cause won't go away by harming myself, being smart is the only way I guess. You're still here, everyone else on this forum are still here no matter the hardship, I understand that as enough evidence that we can withstand the great deal of pain. Things I could say from my experience would be like, try not to succumb to your emotions, mistakes are prone to happen, sometimes doing the right thing for yourself may seem the hardest, we're all trying to figure out ourselves, either way you choose for yourself, I'd like for you to find kindness and strength for having going through the past that none of us can't change.

Things that seems to be working right now is that I'm trying not to attach meaning to the inflictions of the injury, I wanted bigger but I just couldn't give the act too much power, I had to know what it was about first, please remember, everyone is trying to figure **** out for themselves, you're the boss, take charge. TC.