Sorry. It sucks when you feel ppl you love pulling away from you. especially when you are hurting and need the suport. I have unfortunately lost a lot of friends over the yrs due to my MI. Only advice I can offer for your situation is that I think you both could use sometime apart. Maybe your recent SA is triggering memories/feelings she thought she had put behind and simply just isn't ready to confront them yet. On your side, I would use the time apart to reflect on your friendship as a whole. If the behavior she is displaying is a new development then she probably just is unknowingly taking out some of her issues on you... if it is a pattern then she might have a PD that is not being treated which is hard to watch someone you love go through esp. if they do not have insight into their behavior yet. But either way it is her issue not yours and maybe moving apart right now is best to guard yourself from bearing the blame of her problems. Let her know you love and support her but let her know that you do not and will not put up with her treating you this way. Boundaries in LTR are hard, but better to be firm than fall into a cycle of abuse. You need to deal with your own well being first, always, and especially now. Be kind to yourself. You are not throwing anything away, you are taking good steps toward your own health and recovery. If you start feeling alone or things start getting dark for you again, please don't hesitate to reach out here or pm me if you need a kind ear! You are important and cared about.