Ugh! I get SO annoyed with my depression. It makes me so angry.

My life looks good on paper. Sort of. I spent years in eating disorder and depression hell that put me on disability because I was near death.

But my depression still goes on. I feel like I function somewhat better. My close friends and family say that I've improved a ton.

But I still feel like I'm on the verge of arsing things up again.

I still fight the negative thoughts.

I still exhaust myself with the mental judo that it takes to fight those negative thoughts.

I still worry about making mistakes at work and think that I'm on the verge of getting fired.

I still worry that my fiance will come to his senses and dump me.

I still get panic attacks.

I always feel like I'm waiting for the other damned show to drop.

Ugh! I am just so frustrating.