Thanks all. I'm still quite depressed but think I cried most of it out yesterday? I just wish I knew what hit me or why. I am still exhausted. Slept but didn't sleep. My eyes burn and I just want to curl up and hide and have someone play with my hair. I'm so tired and weak and just expended I guess. T again today - we'll see how this goes. Nervous. She'll be lovely as always and I'll be a mess. I might just ask to have a nap and she can do paperwork. I'm glad I'm working through this but it's so incredibly hard at times.

Thanks, Art. I have 24/7 access to her - that's the problem right now she goes through phases where I can tell she's getting too close and then she pulls away and this is one of those pulling away times and I need her so it's just bad timing so she'll let me figure it out on my own and we'll talk about it today. I don't know. Her life is bananas right now and I'm falling to pieces but life is life I guess.