I feel like no one really gives a **** anymore. Nothing is going right today, and it's like no one is bothering to help or make anything right. I made an hour and a half drive for my usual biweekly meeting this morning, and waited over an hour for my supervisor to get there. She never showed up. I called twice, no answer. I left a message, no response, even though it's now been 2 1/2 hours. It's nice to waste time and gas when I have nothing to spare.

Then I got to work and called in a prescription refill I need this week. They are waiting for a refill from my doc. Why? The same thing happened last month, and I think the month before that. Why the **** is it taking the doc so ****ing long to send the refill when he knows I need to call it in every 4 weeks? I'm supposed to take it around the same time on the same day of the week, every week, so why the **** can't they make it available when I need it?

Then there are all these little things at work. Two of us get asked if we can do something, and since I answered first I get to do it. I don't really have time to do it, but since the other person hasn't had a chance to answer the email yet, probably hasn't even read it, it's all on me. Clients are being ****ing morons and making it seem like our faults, and I have no defense because I did nothing.

I want to scream. I feel this weight over me and I just want to claw it away but there is nothing to attack besides myself. What is it going to take for anything to start being positive in my life?