I haven't been diagnosed yet but I can't stick feeling like this anymore. I've always thought I was different ever since I was young and a couple of weeks ago I took about 10 personality tests and was so shocked by what I found. Reading the avoidant personality type was like reading a book about myself, I didn't even know it existed but now I do I want to get help. I can't stick always feeling so scared and worthless, everything I do I do with severe caution and I just can't make decisions which I really need to at the moment. I've just been diagnosed with a muscle wasting disease and I'm just about to go to uni so I have alot of important decisions to make. I just feel like I'm ruining my own life and making myself miserable. I come off awkward, shy and hostile , I struggle to show affection and blush when any affection is shown towards me. Even my own mother thinks I'm cold because I can't even hug her. All my life I've just felt like I'm not good enough. Just throwing this theory out there but I think it's because as a child I was always the weak vulnerable one. I could never keep up with my friends and they would always kind of pick on me in a playfull way because they knew I was basically the one in the group who was the pushover. Even my teachers would pick on me and make me feel inadequate, for example I could never run as fast as everyone else and my physical ability was poor (This is obviously because of my underlying disease, which we did not know about) but I could never do what everyone else was doing and therefore felt inferior to everyone. How can I get help???