Hello honhonhonbaguette: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Is there a school guidance counselor you could talk with... or perhaps a teacher whom you trust? Keeping this all bottled up inside is not going to solve anything. You need to find someone in real life with whom you can talk this through & try to figure out what to do. It does make it just all that much harder that your parents won't acknowledge your difficulty & help you find a solution. So, hopefully, you can find someone in your life with whom you can share your struggles. But, in the meantime, please keep posting here on PC. It can help too. And the more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more connected to the community you will become.