Sleepy now. It is late here. But I am having that feeling that I want to do something fun,find something interesting, learn something new... whatever, I am tired to do so. I am like this, sometimes the more tired I feel the less I feel like going to bed, like inertia.

The dinner/prom or whatsoever is this friday. Not that much excited about that. But I can't skeep traditions or I will regret it later. Had a fight with my sister because of it, while we were shopping. I am not sure who was right, but I feel like I had to say it even in that particular circunstance it might not have been true... the fact that my sister is a very critic person, she can be mean sometimes, and that I always look up for what might she be thinking.

I can't blame her for the way I manage my feelings and anxieties, yet, she can make anyone feel pretty bad, and I have been under her wing forever, always. Of course I care more than I should about her opinion. I never had a voice under her influence. It's my personality, I get it, but it is also hers. It's not like that with my mother. I had to speak out, even the main raison was to stand up for myself and say what I fear without holding back.

The true is that everytime I go shopping I wait for her opinion. I just try or buy something if she aproves of it. And this happens for many other aspects of my life. But she does a lot of things for me, a lot, she helps me when I need, and get why she got upset with me.