Justy, you sound like a very strong person with a lot of life yet to live. I'm a strong believer in "things happen for a reason" and I think you are meant to be a mother. I don't know you but you sound lovely, and you did say you love children... I hope you will be able to take what has been given to you, even if it's not at what you think to be the best time, and fly with it. I have the greatest confidence that you will be a wonderful mother and so much happiness will come to you in the near future that will last your lifetime. Sometimes we don't always get what we want at the times we want them. I just hope for the best for you. Please take care, I'll be praying for you. This could be one of the greatest things to happen to you if you allow it to be.