Mmm... I just realized why I don't fall for people who like me. I am afraid of needing someone to care for me I feel like they won't do it. So that is why I can't get close to anyone... I have become so self reliant on myself making myself so strong that I well never need love it's what I do everyday telling myself I am all I need so I am never reliant on relying on someone because I couldn't when growing up. I saw my mother take care of my dad and I felt I would have the same man not caring not really existing I feared I would be the only one working in the relationship. That is why I leave after I get close to them I am afraid of having to do everything on my own in relationships. unsure emoticon. I fear I will end up alone and neglected in relationships.