Those of us who have had traumatic experiences, especially in childhood, will block the memory. If you feel that there is something wanting to come into your concious, your best bet would be to see a good psychologist whom you feel comfortable with. Sometimes it takes being put under a deep state of relaxation or a hynotic trance. I'd encourage you to not pursue this alone.
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.