(((hugs)))....

I just want to say... I had a history with some T's too.. It took a really long time to find this T.. months.. I sent out e-mails.. with "weird" questions.. to see how they would respond.. so I could just get an idea.. of what their initial reaction was to stuff..

I goggled the T.. lol..

I checked out the building..

I knew already I didn't want to be in a clinic again...where the T would be more likely to come and go..

I wanted some one with experience.. but who wasn't going to retire soon.. or have a baby..

private practice meant to me they had a vested interest in staying in their practice..

And then.. of course.. the insurance..

Then I had been so "burned"... I asked over and over and over... each session:
are you retiring in the next 10 years
do you have any thoughts of not liking your profession
do you get rid of clients you don't like
does your wife want to move to a warmer client
do you have a life threatening or an illness that would make it so you couldn't practice..

We.. have gone thru this.. 2 times a week.. for months.. until I am sure that he is telling the truth... so I put him thru alot...

So you are not alone... it took me many months to find him too.. I couldn't just walk in and "trust" someone either.
I won't go into what my previous T of 4 years did to me to make me so hurt..

The other T that I liked for 3 years.. I really put him thru the mill.. I tested him and tested him to see if he would stick around... (the T before him.. well I won't go into that either)..

So you are not the only one....the right fit is there... there is hope...