smoking is great.. it can have mixed effects sometimes, but when it works it works
i am so jealous wish that i had it like i used to to smoke all the time, but i probably really did smoke a bit way too much! but hehe it was fun atleast
i think ill be able to have some next week though, really exciting!
since i havent been able to smoke much my tolerance has come down significantly... going from smoking 3-4 bowls to where i can take a little pinch and take 3-4 hits and get pretty high... but you know we only smoke the dank
the only thing i dont like is when i go a couple weeks without it and i smoke the first couple days the depersonalization stuff is pretty heavy and that can be a little uncomfortable... but ive lived with that stuff for ever anyway so im used to it, its just weird when you start falling out of your body around people lol

um.. when i went to the hospital they sent me to a place that was funded by grants and stuff... so the patients didnt have to pay to go there, but you had to try to do the group meetings and cooperate or else they had to send you home or something... and the capacity was low - 15 people maximum.. but 8 group meetings a day is a lot to someone who is avoidant!
is there any place like that there? i think this is their website http://www.rbha.org/