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Originally Posted by elevatedsoul
 smoking is great.. it can have mixed effects sometimes, but when it works it works
i am so jealous  wish that i had it like i used to to smoke all the time, but i probably really did smoke a bit way too much! but hehe it was fun atleast
i think ill be able to have some next week though, really exciting!
since i havent been able to smoke much my tolerance has come down significantly... going from smoking 3-4 bowls to where i can take a little pinch and take 3-4 hits and get pretty high... but you know we only smoke the dank 
the only thing i dont like is when i go a couple weeks without it and i smoke the first couple days the depersonalization stuff is pretty heavy and that can be a little uncomfortable... but ive lived with that stuff for ever anyway so im used to it, its just weird when you start falling out of your body around people lol 
um.. when i went to the hospital they sent me to a place that was funded by grants and stuff... so the patients didnt have to pay to go there, but you had to try to do the group meetings and cooperate or else they had to send you home or something... and the capacity was low - 15 people maximum.. but 8 group meetings a day is a lot to someone who is avoidant!
is there any place like that there? i think this is their website Richmond Behavioral Health Authority |
I've been wanting to cut back, especially because my tolerance is higher than I'd like. Plus it would be nice to be able to pass a drug test easily again. We went 2 days without last weekend, and when we finally picked up it was such a great day lol
I haven't gone more than a few days without smoking for like 2 years, other than the couple weeks I was getting clean for a drug test, so I don't remember if I've had any depersonalization from it. But I can imagine it would not be fun.
I really don't know what kind of inpatient options there are around here. I know there's one for substance abuse not too far away that's nice (I had a client go there last year), but I don't know anything for mental health. I see my t through the hospital, and I think they have only outpatient services, unless it's crisis? I don't know, I've never looked into it. I haven't wanted to think much about it, I have a lot of fear of what would happen to the rest of my life if I had to take that option.