I felt so happy to come to terms with my weight when i read about self-acceptance but now i am at wits end with my weight since i overate so badly i gave myself a painful stomach ache for many hours.

This happens with money too. I'm thrifty and build up my savings then i'm indulgent and just want to take a big bite out of life by buying things til my heart's content.

This happens with exercise too. I'm training for a marathon or i'm a couch potato.

Either i adore my dog or i am trying to give her away.

This happens with activities too. Sometimes i so dislike karaoke i skip my support group on days when we do it but today i was so into it i ran it, i was DJ.

I'm like this with church too. I either go three times a week or i'm an atheist.

I feel like i can't trust myself. I isolate because i can't talk about myself because what is true about myself one day may be the opposite the next. How can anyone know me when i don't know myself? I am like a slippery bar of soap you just can't get a grip on.

How am i supposed to get ahead in life, or work on personal growth when i can't depend on myself? Should i just accept it and build an identity on my instability? What kind of a thing is 'instability' to identify with? I've heard the joke: if you don't like my mood, wait five minutes and it will change. But this is no laughing matter.

I feel like such a hypocrite. I feel so mixed-up all the time. Anyone relate?

I guess to look on the bright side, when you take me on, you get two-in-one. It's just that they're at war with each other.