That's interesting that your feelings have slowly developed. I too had quite intense feelings for T1, and feel that it has been a lot easier not having those feelings with T2, though I kind of miss them too. I have been wondering if the feelings will ever come with T2. Is it that you fear rejection? I guess as babies we felt that intense feeling for our care giver and longed to be held, but weren't always, so perhaps we faced a lot of rejection?