I suffer pain and get very tired all the time.I have a lot of conditions makes it hard to care for myself and the home.

I have a buffalo hump between my shoulders and a spinal misalignment where my spine leans to the left.I always get tension in my shoulders and muscles even my leg muscles.My legs are weak,my mobility is bad,limited.Sometimes my legs cannot carry my weight I walk with a stick.

I am obese.

I have diabetes type 2.

I have hypothyroidism.

I have sleep apnoea.

I have bladder weakness.

I have high blood pressure and angina.

All these conditions combined means there are times when I am very physically ill.Sometimes I have urine infections,ear infections and skin infections to deal with too.

I also have schizoaffective disorder.PTSD and depression and social anxiety.
All of this together gets overwhelming.How do I cope,for over 26 years I didn't I went from one illness to the other at the same time I was emotionally,psychologically and physically abused by my sister who was meant to be a carer to me.She wasn't she was motivated by my estate my will and gaining money from my death.All the decision she made were geared around me getting so ill I would die.She attempted to take my life twice.

I only survived it cos I threw her out of my life cos God opened my eyes to her true motives.Now I am managing my conditions with help from those who care.....I am learning more how to self care too.It is hard when I am totally alone but I 'm making good progress,I have days when I can now go out for a meal or to watch a film,days of enjoyment.This I didn't have for years.

I hope others won't give up as you can see I have so much wrong but I am still willing to live and try and improve my health.I will lose weight I hope and manage my conditions better and gain more quality of life.