I haven't posted in such a long time. And even when I first joined I didn't post much. I don't know what to say (my mood can cycle rapidly - leaving me unsure of what I truly feel; and I just don't trust my thoughts, mood, and feelings).

But I will say that I've been in a bad way for the last couple of weeks especially. I try to fool my wife, but she is saying that I need to see someone. We have no medical insurance and are below the poverty line, so I'm not sure how that can work. I've told her that I don't want to talk to anyone about it. I've done that - for years - there is nothing left to say. She says that it will be a necessary step to get referred to a doctor. She's thinking medication; I'm thinking no. I've done that, too. A lot. I gave up meds almost 18 years ago.

I don't like to talk about my past (or current) experiences with mental health. Folk know that there is something definitely peculiar about me. "Do you have ADHD?" or, "What's the matter? We haven't heard from you in a while. You aren't answering emails, messages, etc."

Here's the set-up and question: I have a partner that I work with running an online media company. He has a son that suffers from severe clinical depression. Should I reach out and confide in him about my own struggles?

I don't know why I am asking this. Are you comfortable with discussing your mental health with others? I'm not. I have a ton of anxiety, and always think the person I'm speaking too thinks I'm a idiot.

Give me some advice, please. And I'm sorry for the rambling post.