im sorry, i wanted to respond earlier! but i forgot... or ya know, i dunno what happened *rolls eyes*

omg i hate it when they do that stuff to you, my old pdoc did that stuff to me the entire time, he would tell me how a medicine is effecting me, how my mood is what im feeling, tell me what i need to do, tell me that i am fine and seem to be doing much better, and i was just like dude wtf? at the end my blood pressure started elevating everytime i went in to meet him because i knew what he was going to say and how he was going to treat me... my blood pressure now easily gets over 150/110 when i go to appointments because of this.. the nurses always look at me like are you ok? and im like sure, im fine, can i change my medicine?

it sucks when you have to do without the meds... especially when they do help a little, even if just a little... its really nice that you are staying sober, i lose that battle super easy and throw in the towel and just turn up whole bottles of wine :/ but my coping skills suck apparently

do you like your pdoc? is there any way you can get on a patient assistance program?
i did a few PAPs and they gave me the meds free..
RxAssist - Patient Assistance Programs
the nurse filled out all the paperworks for me... they had me on Zyprexa, strattera, and i think one more i cant remember... all through those programs so i could get them free since i didnt have any insurance or income... you have to qualify for it but maybe you could...?

i wish you felt better, has a big warm hugz for you

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