I've never looked into alcohol affecting memory, so I don't know about that. It's pretty anecdotal information that weed affects short-term memory, I have TONS of clients who joke about having memory problems from smoking. I actually just read an article somewhere yesterday that said memory problems are seen more in infrequent smokers, not as much in heavy users. I wonder if part of it isn't from some part of the MI. I've been having a lot of memory problems lately too. Like just now, I was looking at another website when I remembered an email I had to write, then I came here and forgot about it until just now. It's always, there was something I was going to do, but I don't remember. Or I talk to someone and feel like I forgot to tell them something I wanted to say after. It's weird and frustrating.
lol
I spent a lot of time daydreaming about bf before. It's not as easy now that my depression has pretty much killed any sex drive I have. Sometimes at night though I do catch myself just staring at him lol. One of these days he's going to catch me and I'll be embarrassed
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Originally Posted by elevatedsoul
yeah its just an enjoyable relaxing experience 
dunno why they think its such a harmful/dangerous thing
yeah i think thats similar to what i do, i end up talking to myself though lol 
but thats because i know myself better than anyone i guess and its an automatic thing andd i dont really like talking about things to other people, but if i had a GF it might would be different
distraction seems to be what its about, or forgetting about things? sometimes things just seem to leave my head and im left with other feelings, but sometimes it annoys me because of confusion and because i feel like a manipulator / master faker or something and i start to feel crazy or scared because things start going through my head like "what if i am bipolar?" or what if it is mania, or what if im psychotic blablabla - but right now im just blocking it, trying to atleast!
i just find it strange that i can turn into a chameleon and adopt some other feelings, i start to feel stoned really... i mean i do feel high right now but thats kinda one of the reasons i dont like to be sober becuase i feel more messed up when im sober than when im using stuff if that makes sense, like just thinking about it makes me start feeling dizzy/disorientated but i've been trying to learn to go with the flow instead of freaking out over something that might be a good thing, after all im not crying and moaning about how messed up i am
but just saying that stuff out loud makes me shake my head because it sounds ridiculous, makes me confused grr
i would feel like a huge idiot if it turned out that i was bipolar, super retarded 
but i just cant understand why i forget everything the way i do, does weed/alcohol damage your memory like that? i cant remember how i used to be before i started because i started around 12/13 years old... but i really am more sober now and just dont understand how something like that can be effecting me like this, its reallly bad! or good, how ever you wanna look at it 
if i was you and i had a wonderful boyfriend like yours i would be fantasizing / daydreaming about him all the time to make me feel better  |