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Originally Posted by justafriend306
I believe Citalopram is the culprit in my own recent weight gain. Last fall I was at a healthy weight. At Christmas I was prescribed with that medication and almost immediately began gaining weight - despite my staying fairly active.
It frustrates me. My lifestyle hasn't changed; except, since I started Citalopram my relationship with food has deteriorated. I just can't seem to help it. And this despite the physical activity.
Yes this has really affected my view of my body image for the worst. I've really had to draw out my coping skills. I hate how I look and I'm constantly embarassed.
I have considered halting that medication. BUT, FOR THE FIRST TIME I AM REASONABLY STABLE. I'm not sure it's worth risking that just because I've gained some extra pounds.
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I totally get it! It felt like I had to make the decision to be fat and happy, or thin and miserable. I made the decision to be fat and happy, but that doesn't mean I'm happy with my body. It is disgusting. I avoid the mirror as much as I can because it reminds me of all the extra weight I am carrying around. I don't like clothes shopping anymore because it's harder to find the clothes I like. I can't even shop at my favorite stores anymore. Some of them I can, so I only run in and grab the largest size, pay for it and leave. I'll try them on in the comfort of my own home. If it fits, hooray! If not, well it has to go back. When I had to go to the Plus Size section of the department store for the first time....I was disappointed in myself. But when I was smaller, I didn't put much effort into maintaining my weight, so I'm not exactly groomed for the exercising and healthy eating life. Personally, in my head I'm smaller than I actually since I was that way for years. It's only when I have to buy clothes or look in full length mirrors that I'm disgusted. So I avoid both.
Whoa, that turned out to be a much needed rant. A bit cathartic as well..
