So i used to post here a lot, but that was a long time ago and i've been fine. Anyways in the last week i've gotten hypomanic, maybe manic, and the hypersexuality has been the most intense part. I've done things i had never done before, and making plans to do even more intense things. I don't know how much detail is ok to put here, but basically just obsessed with sex. I met a guy in a club Friday night, and he is manic too, and we spent the entire weekend just having sex, and not eating or sleeping. I was ok monday, and went into work, but monday evening he came over and we were up all night again. I tried to go to work, but a friend who knows me well suggested i go home. So i did, and i took a bunch of quetiapine and slept around the clock. Went to work this morning and felt ok, but then i got super agitated and racing thoughts etc, and i had to leave. Work said i should take tomorrow off. My friends are concerned, and so am i, but it's hard to force a come down because it all feels amazing. Now i'm sluggish on quetiapine again. That guy is coming over in an hour, and i was texting dirty with another guy. Plus that guy wants to bring his friend along, which also sounds awesome, but i'm not sure how i'll feel about it later. The thing is right now i want to go with what feels good, because this state of mind rarely happens to me. I feel like i'm falling in love with the club guy, but i know that's crazy. And earlier i was crying for like no reason at all. It seems like if i go anywhere i'm going to get myself into trouble, and if i stay in my apartment i will loose it. Feels like sex is the only thing that will help, but even that doesn't get rid of agitation for long - although the rush of oxytocin is lovely.

Anyways, just venting to some people who hopefully understand and won't judge. I have a doc appointment tomorrow, and i know what she'll say. I'n just trying to play hard without consequences, or without severe consequences anyway.

Also, i'm 30something, female.