Not sure if this helps much at this point in time but a lot of us have been down that same hole. It sounds to me like you are just being treated by a GP. Try to get to a pdoc (psychiatrist) as soon as you can for a proper diagnosis and the right meds that work for you. It IS possible to crawl out of that hole, too often GP's mean well but sometimes they are just out of their element with BP. Good luck and welcome to PC, you will find lots of people here that can relate to what you are going through.