I'm not sure what it is called. I like the sorta basic ways I look like some facial features, my hands, my hair. But I miss my child body that was light as a butterfly. Even if I would get really skinny I still wouldn't have that. Also I hate certain parts because of gender dysphoria. And I AM extremely age dysphoric as well, my brain seems to mature ultra slowly so I'm basically maybe around 13 now starting to learn this and that about life. And my body is middle aged.

For me idk if it's some kind of identity thing, if others just care less if their inner selves match their bodies, or if my inner self really is very different than theirs.

I adore old people. I think many old people are so very pretty. Still it scares me to age, because I'm not even done with my youthhood mentally yet...