This is like, impossible for me to do. My T emailed me today, told me to write all my feelings down as if I were telling him them. Write them for myself. Then he says a appointment is up to me!

Oh my god, I don't have a clue on what to do, I am not ready for this.......I feel like I am headed for the water falls and cannot stop, and cannot steer away from it........I know it is up to me, my call on everything now, he is going to make sure I stay on the right path, but I am feeling that the training wheels came off way to soon.......and I can feel myself regressing..........

Would you tell him?? Would you suck it up and just go with it? So confused!!

It isn't feeling right..........it isn't feeling like I have control, more like I have no control.....I haven't been able to work on anything, no inner child work, no calming things......nothing.......I feel like he is behind me, but miles away!!