Reading this takes me back, I had the same problems. My mom was so hard on me and always dissapointed. I didn't understand depression then. Now I have raised two children on my own and I have a perspective from both sides and I just want to say that your parents are probably doing the best they can, if they have not experienced depression themselves they just have no idea what to do. We all deserve people who understand but I think only those who have been there get it. Take care of yourself but just know they might be scared and not know what to do. I wish you the best