Dont_Follow: Thank you for that. I'll definitely look into it. I'm majoring in philosophy and philosophy has actually helped me get through some of my other anxieties so I'm going to take a look at that. I appreciate the help!

Skeezyks: Thank you so much. I only ever went to two funerals as a child but it never had much impact on me. Now I went to a funeral and I think what really kickstarted all of this was the fact that at said funeral we all assumed she'd be cremated but it was open-casket and it really threw me off because I already didn't handle this well. I'm hoping that I can find someone who can help me. I've found a therapist that does grief counseling so I'm thinking that's close enough to what I need help with. I totally agree about not wanting to keep it bottled up inside. It's not getting me anywhere that way but I don't have anyone I can talk to about this because those I usually do either don't understand it or are dealing with it themselves and don't want to talk about it.

ElsaMars: I'm in the same boat. I totally understand that. I have OCD and it just wreaks havoc on me in combination with this. My anxiety and depression has gotten out of control the past few months so I'm thankful I'll be starting weekly therapy soon. Hang in there, yourself, and hopefully we'll be able to get through this. (((hugs)))