I hear you!
My struggles have gotten worse since I got diagnosed and started treating my "illness". I don't know if that comes from an awareness and thus a fearful consuming obsession or from the painful progression of a progressive disease?
I'm likely to never settle on an answer, but I do know that I want to give up sometimes(most times). And I very much long for the emotional freedom I once had. There was a time when I didn't live on eggshells.
I want my life back.
I know I can't have it. I can't go off meds without everyone I know gasping in horror. That says something, no?
Selective amnesia is a part of this mess. When not symptomatic it feels as though it never actually existed.
It's a brain trick that's worse than the other pains.

Take your meds, and I'll take mine.

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