So I'm new to this, never posted to a forum before... my name is Matt and I have some questions. After 6 years of one day thinking there was a problem and the next feeling fine calling it a personality quirk, I finally went and contacted my primary who sent me to a GP. Also have an appointment somewhere else in 2 weeks. Now I understand that I'm not a doctor/psychologist and nor are most of you so neither of us can diagnose me with bipolar. But about 3 weeks ago I finally gave in the following day after an episode... I call it that because I'm sure pacing through my apartment trying to figure out why I got up, where I was going, what did I need and about 50 other thoughts running through my head while throwing my phone and other objects trying to remind me why I got up in the first place isn't normal. But then again if you ask me tomorrow you'll probably get a different answer lol. So this GP crossed out bp1 almost immediately and suggested that 2 was also unlikely and tossed it up to general anxiety and depression... Now let's just for a second review what I told her... 1. I lost my job in December due to some outbursts and intentions that didn't benefit my job but does in my desire to become a famous musician who might miss out if a scout attends an open mic. 2. January - March depression, 1 meal a day, didnt get out of bed, low heigine, missed every open mic in that period of time. And averaged 8+ hours of sleep a night 3. End of march, started feeling better, recorded 5 cover song posted online tried going to open mics, not much interest. 4. First week of april Episode (from above) 5. Erratic sleep, biting off more than I can chew at new job pun inteded, heightened irritability and energy, buying random stuff I can't afford, obsessing over my future appointment, racked up a nice phone data bill and 2 additional episodes and 4 new original songs completed which leads me to 6. Yesterday and today, can barely keep my eyes open, just reviewed my finances which has increased anxiety and once again searching for answers as the past is doomed to repeat thyself. I've been able to track these periods back to when I was kid. Now the GP said I was too aware of my symptoms for me to have BP1 however when I discovered what BP actually was my "bouts," what I used to call them, of depression made sense and included why my life is like egg after being hit several times with a frying pan when I'm not depressed. So i researched the heck out of it and discover that according to ds5? I match the criteria and scored a 47 on on this sites test and passed about 4 other online self assessments. What do you guys/gals think I should do? Should I trust her judgement? I really don't want to be misdiagnosed, I'm damn near unhirable as it is already... I've lost 5 jobs to this thing/condition and doubt these swings can be caused by general anxiety.