Dexter,
I'm so sorry that you've reached this point. I can only imagine the hopelessness and frustration you are feeling right now. I know how hard you've been working, so I do understand. Please know that I am not trying to offend you when I say, please don't give up. You are worth it. I value your insights and comments. It wasn't that long ago that I was convinced that depression was going to win the battle. You told me to keep trying. I did. and some days still suck and i still fight with the same loneliness that you do. But you are not alone. You may not have any hope left at this moment but I do. You can do it.... you're not alone.