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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
In all honesty, I'm starting to believe that anxiety is my only situation too.
Like... I'm sort of like you too. I really can get into my projects, staying up all night, little sleep, existing in this perma high that can last for up to four months now that I think about it, and afterwards I have a crash phase.
But couldn't all of that just be a simple writer's high? Every artistic person gets that!
So, I don't know. I just wonder similar things.
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Thank you for sharing this! And I totally agree -- I've even had doctors ask me whether certain aspects of my 'highs' (and sometimes bizarre thought-processing) are just part of being a creative and obsessive person. I've been thinking about this a lot lately because all of a sudden - after 5 years of struggling with my project and suffering horrible ups and downs - I've written my entire dissertation in the past few months AND have been pretty near-stable the entire time...I've had none of the inspired 'frenzies' I used to have, and no crashes either - just steady, satisfying productivity. Granted, it's not as exciting, but I've actually finished something for once. It just really makes me wonder whether the mood swings were due to extreme stress (got them before I started phd program as well, but feel like I've been 'stressed' my entire life) and whether my inability to get anything done was caused by the ups and downs, or was causing them...
Sorry for the ramble, good to hear from someone who relates!