I have been mentally ill my entire life but either misdiagnosed or not diagnosed until my I was about 21, I am 55 now. I went without meds on and off for many years but I was officially diagnosed with bipolar 1 until 2003.

When I stopped taking my meds years ago I was in in hypo-manic or full blown manic mode nonstop so I self-medicated with alcohol. When I quit drinking 13 years ago and stayed on my meds I eventually leveled out although somewhat on the depressive side. But it did make me realize that I needed meds and likely would have to stay on them for the rest of my life since I am a little bit (a lot) crazy without them.

It sucks being on meds but I would be dead years ago without them.
I have heard the meds I am on can reduce life span anywhere from 15-25 years which means I would most likely die in my 60's. The last time I was in the hospital I was told I would not make it until 55 so who really knows. The doctors sure don't.

I am always glad to hear when people on this forum are able to drop meds and still remain stable. I wish I could do the same.