Bouts of emotions now and then and in the between the indifference. I have plenty of reasons to be sad and upset, but in the mean time the emotions go away and I can't express how things that happened make me feel.
Like having a really really really bad grade in a pratical evaluation that is totaly unfair and far from what I think I deserve. And seeing the mean of my grades of all this six year fall 0,3 because of an only subject and a really stupid doctor. In a time that a little difference in the grades can be the difference between getting or not getting the job I want. And seeing all the other classmates getting way better grades with no substancial difference between my performance and theirs.

I already have a big chalenge tomorrow. The gala dinner/dance party. It ends at 6.00am (of course I can leave early), but I don't know how I will make, because I real don't feel in the mood for that much social interation with people I am not totally comfortable with. And I don't have a car and I don't have anyone to give me a ride back home.