As some of you know, I have been talking long distance (was off for about two weeks, now back on) to a man that I really like, who seems to also really like me. He stopped talking to me because I pushed at him just too much, and my anger went overboard to boot. I have a lot of insecurity and some BPD tendencies (which I am actively working out through DBT). We are now talking again because I wrote an apology letter which he responded to right away. He said he felt touched by the letter, and missed talking with me. That was four days ago. He said he didn't want anything from me right now but a little communication, if I wished. I felt like we were just chatting here and there, and he needed to take things slow to build up some trust. That's fine. However, I kind of bore a lot of my feelings in that apology letter, and I don't feel that they were reciprocated. I am not too sure how he feels in return. Does he feel that, if we keep things up and meet up with one another, this could be something, or am I just a pretty girl he likes to flirt with once in a while?

See, the thing is that things aren't the same as they were prior to the rift. Before that, we were pretty equal in initiating communication. One of us would usually say good morning, or ask about the other's day. Since we started talking again, it's always me (I know it's only been four days, but it's a difference). I didn't initiate anything today, and I didn't hear from him at all. He used to comment on my FB posts, now nothing. He has started flirting with me again, but it's all about my looks or he gets kind of mildly suggestive (which is fine, that goes along with my sense of humor). Before, he would do that but also talk about my character. It was just...less superficial.

Part of me knows I need to go with the flow. The other part of me, the one that is taking over (the one that ruined it the first time), is panicking. I do need some clarification. Just a little. I texted him over a half hour ago. Nothing. That is unusual. And it bothers me, because this guy has a great character. He's very legit, not a player, not an ahole at all.

I feel hopeless. I don't know how to react. For my own self worth, I feel like I need clarity, but I'm afraid he'll see it as needy and/or pushing. What should I do, and/or how should I ask?